The Mo is now a permanent fixture. You can scroll through the gallery at the top of this page to find more detail about the ‘why’. I have never been able to explain it more eloquently than I did during that post. Too many important men are taken away from too many people, far too often. The effects of that tragedy takes its toll, the impact can be so severe as to take another life. All of that needs to stop. One year year, I journaled my Mo growing. Sharing the thoughts I wrestle with every day (usually night) as to show that we are not alone in thinking certain things. The overriding theme was guilt and self-deprecation and this cycle: paralysis through over-thinking, which leads to guilt about failure to complete a menial task or achieve a goal, which then leads to self-loathing. This then spirals into more doubt about whether my Dad would have been proud of me. It goes on. Fortunately, I can get through it. My Movember activity aims to raise awareness of those feelings and raise funds to support those who are not as lucky as I am to have loving support from family and friends. In 2024, to conquer the guilt about never visiting my Dad’s grave - even admitting that was a big step as it fills me with shame and guilt - I walked from Hemel Hempstead to Chelmsford, accompanied by my Mum and the dog. I did this to confront my own feelings. This year, to face the overriding feeling of guilt that still consumes me, I am challenging myself to get up and run every day. I know people do that already. I envy their clarity of thought and self-discipline. I want to prove to myself I can do it and that I do deserve to look after myself by completing this challenge. I would be extremely grateful if you could support me in doing so.